MY FEELING'S....

i feel sad! today i feel verry emotional!
i miss mr.park! this time when he come back to korea, he became verry busy!
i want to call him but i think he will just say that he is busy!
some times.... he visit his son, he say he is busy and dont tell me his together his son!
i think im not that important to him!
sometimes i thinking.... "does he really loves me?" "did he miss me?"
i dont even know what's he doing now or what's in his mind!
in the philippines im special and in korea automatic im forgotten!
i dont what i am with him... am i girlfriend? am i treated as a wife?
did he using me just to lived and make business in philippines?
did they are`right for telling me that i am just a nothing with them and i am just a past time!
i'm afraid! what if its true? what about me?
what about my feelings?
hhaaaa.... i am already having head ache with this and its too much...
i wish im not like just pathetic or something